Balance is a two-way street.

Balance is a two-way street.

By Ollie.

Hey guys, it’s been a while since I’ve posted on here. It has been an interesting past couple of weeks, and I have been doing a lot of self-searching. More specifically, I’ve been trying to improve my social life, by meeting more new people and go on more dates. It seems like I’ve managed to gain some momentum, and now I am regularly meeting up with new friends.

One way that I have been doing so, is by chatting to guys on bumble and then meeting up in town, normally playing a couple rounds of pool and having a drink or two. This has led to me meeting a bunch of friendly people in the area who are also trying to improve their social lives. I’ve been finding it to be quite a wholesome experience, especially with straight men, as it just goes to show, you’re never too old to put yourself out there.

I’ve also started going to a Spanish intercambio every Wednesday, just like I used to do when I was living in Spain. Which has been a great way to practice my Spanish and meet new people. At first, I was very shy to go and try something new. But again, I found the experience to be very cute, as there are also a bunch of others wanting to do the same.

Finally, I’ve been going on more dates, and broadening my sexual horizons shall we say. Which is the most out of my comfort zone practice to date. Typically, I’m quite a shy and introverted person, but it has been nice to experiment with some local guys and explore new territory.

I think what I have learned about myself through this journey, is that I am quite a confident, social and outgoing person. As I have continued to surprise myself and meet up with new people. Whilst it can be scary to put yourself out there both socially and romantically, the pay off, can be huge. And I would encourage my readers, to take a chance, and see what is out there.

The only negative outcome, which I have found, is trying to find balance, when your social commitments become too many to handle. And through speaking with my therapist, I have come to realise that it is ok to say no, and to give yourself a break. Not only is this a better solution for yourself, to preserve energy and recuperate. But also, it is fairer on the other party, as you will be giving them your all, later down the line.

Balance is something which I personally struggle with. Especially as a type- A planner and perfectionist. But it is necessary, to live a full life. The solution is simple. Listen to your body, and to your mind. If you feel fatigued and antisocial, then chances are that you are! Don’t try to force a smile or a conversation if the pay off is not just.

Sometimes, the key is a nice warm cup of tea, and a night on the couch, with a comfort movie and your phone off.

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